Grats to those who’ve received the school transfer letter. Looks like I won’t be seeing you guys ~.~ Enjoy in that all boys school haha…

Family matters, school, I’m not sure what’s going on and what I want anymore. I’m so confuse, to the point I’m not sure why I’m even alive anymore. I don’t have a purpose in life? Am I useless? I don’t get WTF I’m actually still under my dad’s protection. I’m beginning to hate him for it. Argh…what’s with me emoing..and all moody…WHERE’S THE ME?! zzzzzzzz

There’s a doubt left in my heart thinking how hard Form 6 is…and whether I’m seriously ready for it. My friend seem to think the same. MUET is alright…Maths I have a good tuition teacher, PA -__- blur, Chem whatever, Physics…is it like this? Haiz…I feel like giving up yet my stubborness forbids me. I should actually follow a good example from George Sampson the fiery enthusiast breakdancer.

“I just got bigger and better” ~George Sampson

He really made the performance a PERFECT comeback! He deserve everything…a perfectionist…he really made me cry from…I don’t even KNOW! It’s the first time I cry over a Reality Show. Either way, I know I want to fight my way through Form 6 and I WILL. Doubts will come on and on…this phase has yet to end…

This post is dedicated to my parasite witty classmate, Suhaida Sukri who’s going to Perlis this 28th of June to further her study in a UiTM in Perlis. We wish you good luck out there… aiyoh tulis pun rasa mau menangis lah! Be sure to come back in time for our 20th Reunion!

Haiz…another gone from Form 6. -_- Will I be strong enough to stand Form 6 on my own? There’s no Malay girls in our class anymore. That tipped off the scale between our little “UMNO”, “MCA” and “MIC” LOL. ~.~ Despite her race and background, we were still united as a group of childish laughing freaks. Soon, it might be Shan Lin’s who’s going off too =x. It can’t be helped, after all everyone’s meant to go their seperate ways. It’s just saddening.

There’s a vision I can only wish and aim for the best in our Form 6. To build one united race we proudly call as the Malaysians of JIGS. It’s quite scattered in our class with seperated individual groups. MIC one proud nation, MCA on side…and other people around here and there. It feels depressing. -_- Anyway, my msn buddy list gave me this link, and I’m sure a majority have watched this on TV. The lyrics didn’t sound…like its in proper order but the song’s not bad ^^. There’s a lot to hidden meanings I guess. Haha…please do listen and kudos to the Mass Communations of Malaysia! I kinda like the Indian Rap xD haha…

There’s racism everywhere and you can’t stop that. But as a united country under one race called the Malaysians, we can do our part to bring our nations closer. Disgracing other races is the same as disgracing your own~

Alright girls…if you’re interested in taking Form 6, remember one more warning heading your way. Form 6 Orientation Day. Well its expected since most colleges/universities does it. =x Can’t be helped but I really wasn’t READY for this hellish day.

Form into a group of 6, we had ice-breaking session by making a hole inside a newspaper, forming a large ring fitting every member inside. We were able to fit in while hugging…but RUNNING in that circle without breaking the ring? LOL, we made it…as the last team -_- oh well.

Anyway, then comes the most non-sense treasure hunt I’ve ever HAD. Our treasure hunt involves solving puzzles at given stations and gaining more clues to the finish line. Here’s the catch though, we are to carry balloons that are hunted by them Upper Form 6. Each POPPED balloon, a penalty of bricks as a replacement. It’s really really heavy. =_= Oh and if we failed to solve any of the following quiz, something “humilating” will be penalized on us. Aiyah, I can only solve that much quiz lah! You think I language genius meh?

But it was quite funny. We wore weird looking hair accessories…which looks really nice instead of ugly, a metal pot hat with a “Laugh At Me” mock sentence written on it, tell stupid jokes, dance like crazy people xD haha this part was the best… and many more. Solving so many puzzles drove me crazy…but word puzzles are quite my favourite. Rearranging the words and finding out obvious clues.

“No wall, no door, no windows…” open space…the field.
“MIC” Tamil Society Water Fall
“Some numbers” Bola Keranjang
“Tallest girl” LOL…Anuisiyah
“Some jumbled out words” Aiyah this one a bit obvious but funny…I thought motorcycle…

Oh and the cold water treatment. My friend’s team got unlucky ~.~ the president went and throw back the coins after she collected all the required coins. Pity lah… my leader ran on with the balloon non-stop just to avoid them. Poor girl…but respects and kudos to her ^^ You’re the best USHA! There’s some bullying in the team also but my irritation got to my temper ~.~ I blast at anyone I deem uncooperative. =x that’s just my nature…tick me and I’ll make sure that person gets it.

At the end, after running screaming…and cursing, we had a lot of fun. It wasn’t that bad ~.~ I slept for 3 hours after returning home. LOL…but God, at least prepare some 100 PLUS! ICE COLD 100 PLUS! Come back home I practically drank one tank of water xD

I didn’t slept early this morning…it was around 2.30am that I finally got the chance to fall into slumber. I drank coffee about 4 hours before that, so maybe I wasn’t just strong enough to shut down at will. I’m so not drinking coffee before bed EVER AGAIN!

I love the air after morning rain. It feels so alive and pleasant. Lessons went on as usual, except today Maths T took out most of MUET’s period. Something I’m somewhat relief about ~.~. Shan Lin was acting her usual sacrastic self with light-hearted personal jokes. And as well as preparing ourselves for tomorrow’s so called “Council Orientation” whatever that is…

I contacted some of our ex-classmates, so far they seem to be so and so. ^^ Haha, don’t worry girls… college should be fine. Don’t cry ya? =x Su and Yanny really miss you guys. T-T Sometimes it makes me emotional when I receive messages like “I miss you!!! ><” haha.

Ah Meng: Take care ya ^^
Lai Yee: Good luck in your coming exam =^^=
Karyn: Don’t over-exhaust yourself!
Su: Why you want go T.T aiyah, tak pe lah…kalau takdir berpisah…you tengok nanti, I menangis habis-habisan baru tahu.
To Everyone: Good luck girls! Homesick also lets homesick together, tired also TIRED till the end! >< Everyone JYJY!

I accidentally woke up late today cause I slept super late and couldn’t…rise up from bed. Super exhausted -_- and I want to sleep badly right now. Haiz…anyway, today we were given another 2 essays for PA. Aiyah… so many homework. Teacher gave a whole new outlook of that Dimention of Physical Quantities thing…so NOT my drama.

A blur combination of Maths T and add maths. Aside from that MUET class today started off well with a little self-introductory and a slight speech in front of class. I was one of those unlucky first day victims to present out my part due to “My Best Friend is a Dog” reputation. Or maybe cause I laughed too much in class. Haiz…I’m getting closer to them new students ^^ its always a pleasant to get to know them when they’re just themselves. Its just not easy to approach them which in turn brought down their confidence. I understand girls -_- I was once a transfered student. Try your best…don’t go do one gang satu kali lima acts lah. We’re not as bad as we seem. Just laughing idiots who can’t handle stressful study life.

Today can be considered as a new start to my Form 6 life. We begun way before the holidays, but nothing exciting happened during that 2 weeks of hell. Only boring events…which didn’t turned out boring in the end ^^.

My head started to throbbed upon waking up from a disaster sweaty Maths dream of “i” and surd -1. Distracted from the digital clock on my handphone, I took the initiative to get up and drag myself to the bathroom to take a nice warm shower only to find my shampoo LOST. Panicked… I look around and still nothing. Then I realized my purse’s gone missing. Uneasiness hit me like a brick as I franctically searched all over for it. My mind went on racing thinking about my genuine IC, my hard earned license and then the suspects. I had remember my nanny and her daughter coming over to visit us and help out with the housechores. My heart didn’t want to EVER think or believe they were the PRIME suspects but I need to LOOK for it carefully. At last I found it, and guilt waived over me as I mentally scolded myself for pinpointing on people and more over someone CLOSE to me. I regret it to the very end even until now.

Class started with an interesting new scenery. Our DUSTY class’s finally CARPET-FREE! Alright that’s the good news…bad news…STILL DUSTY. Aiyah…WTH lah…its slowly killing me. I’m getting ill just thinking about staying in that stuffy room. Physics started out with new weird formulas about Dimensions o.O okay… something about breaking formulas to simpler units. Maths T’s about those Real number definition and Laws. It’s not going in at all, I’m too tired and unhealthy to stay awake -_- Looking forward to another day of sleep.

Oh and we’re now required to CHOOSE our co-curiculums for this year. Aiyah…that again sigh. I’m not sure what to join now. Being an ICT Prefect or School Prefect doesn’t appeal to me as a credited job to do. Studies come first while I’m also well-awared that my nature to participate in glorious events will just be another additonal burden I should learn to avoid. Yet, my passion to pursue challenges has yet to die until now. I’m planning to pick up something interesting. ~.~ Just hope I made the right decision.

A NEW HEADER and just in time too! I’ve uploaded and reuploaded a new header. It’s still in the midst of the examination month, so might be pretty busy ‘A’ Yesterday our so called 30th edition Year Book entitled “Pelita Hati” just came out! Unlike it’s former, this book has to be the coolest I’ve ever seen. The contents, the proactivity amonsgt the teacher’s participation, and our not to forget our Class Dedication Section <3~ ^____^ I’ll post a review on it next time.

Bestari’s 2006/2007 e-BeNOS will be moving from LiveJournal to WordPress soon! So tune in for more updates. Arguably, I would prefer it remains on LiveJournal until the end seeming I had a community and site published there and all. But WordPress seems far better yet still too complicated unless I changed my mind. As I said, TUNE IN FOR MORE UPDATES!

Yay! Yay! I’m so happy to finally have my own personal WORDPRESS blog for the first time in my whole life! Normally I go for LiveJournal, MSNSpace, blogspot and so on. I think a sum of 9 accounts so this would be my 10th. Let’s see how long I’m able to last :3 on this BLOG!

SPM is way around the corner 12 Days or so? I’m quite tired so I’m not going to post much today. Just here to say thanks to miyoko-chan for deriving a new name for me! I think I losing the sight of reality. I might change the header since it’s too professional for my taste :3 Don’t know when though.