I’m revived! The Raya Festival is just days away! Woohoo~! Balik Kampung~ oooh oh oooh Balik Kampung! We’re going to plan a trip to Sunway. Some stress relief? My schedule’s packed with tuitions pilling up on my debts. OMeGAWD can Form 6 be any more expensive?! But at a reasonable price, meh. Mata wang flowing like water only -_-

Hmm…let’s see got back to Maple, Eridanus. Don’t want go back to Delphius although my cousins’ 2 Billions Mesos are tempting me +_+ I just went on a major INT shopping with their money, hope they don’t get mad xD.

Just found out my ex-schoolmate attended Form 6 too. And just yesterday, he got his hair cut like a…well…it just tempts you to touch it. Reminds me of the good old days, my brother let me rub his head just to bug him. =( Meh, we’re not on good terms right now. It’ll get better soon, it always does. And last night when I woke up from my little nap, he left a Mc Chicken on the table <3~

The class is getting weirder, doesn’t it ever? Jaslina’s same class with me with Pn Latifah on labour leave. >< Gosh I miss talking to her, but others just wouldn’t leave us ALONE! >:[

Joanna attends the same tuition in KITA. But seriously, she was out of character when we first met her o_o. I miss her bubbly self. Well she still is, she’s just huggable >.< And with that, there’s those rare moments, when something unnoticed became noticed all of a sudden.

Oh who could understand me? I miss her so much. I never realize one thing. She wasn’t on the same education frequency like my friends, she doesn’t know my life in school until I told her about them. My thoughts and very being becomes vunerable each time she sits down on that chair and start to speak up. Even till that very moment when the news came of her leave, she put on a straight face in front of me and told me the truth. She never shows sad faces. And when I think about it, she always NEVER fail to greet me when I come home from school with a smile. Even during my most depressed moments, she ran all the way from KL to my room just to comfort me. She brought me out of my room each time with her visit. And not once did she told me about the sad things in her life. Everything was happy and I envied. She protected me from the reality. What a bad liar. Ah bloody hell, it must be raining now cause I’m seeing blur texts LOL. Everything I defined as a friend, she broke it all and went against my restrictions. But we got along more than anyone I ever had. Until now, I still haven’t gotten over it, does it really take this long lol?

God FONG, if you’re reading this, please make your blog anynomous-friendly! I don’t know what’s up with my blogspot account! There were many of those occassions when I just want to post something, and that dreadful “NO ANYNOMOUS ALLOWED” sign drains out the creativity blast in me =_=

ColdPlay Rocks <3~ Viva La Vida

The cycle continues on and never ends. Going no where to the beginning or the end. Has it begun? Or is it the beginning of an end?

The girls went for an outing, while I’m stuck at home doing housechores. Might as well get started on my homework. I don’t have anysense of motivation right now. What am I after right now?

It’s time to stop complaining. The Form 6 council has been reestablished, politics are growing deeper, people are getting dirtier. It’s time to concentrate on what’s more important, my STPM. I’m quite fed up of SMP’s politics…but nevertheless it’s time to refocus back on my life. Bye bye to internet, HELLO reality.

First thing’s first, STPM is not your typical exam. It’s a few levels above SPM. See those big books your senior carry around? You’re going to read it whether you like it or not. Aside from that, tuition’s another option. A summarized version of your chapter is provided. After experiencing failure, in this stage you’ll learn how to stand up, be indepedant, mature gradually and see your school in a whole new light. It’ll be a whole new different experience where you judge and think critically. Instead of having those options like “Good or Bad”…it’ll be all about “Good and Good”. It’s a decisive stage where you need to choose the best, most profitable route.

Aside from that, morality builts must be the main factor in your choices. Overkilling your decision with useless irrelevent materials such as “I can’t befriend her because she backstabbed my friend,” you’ll learn to see it as “Oh, I’ll give and take precautiously; of course, taking note that she backstabs people”.

Forward march!

What could be worst than being ALMOST late for school, saw an ACCIDENT on the way to school [car hit cyclist] and having morning reading sessions entertained by a drama created by the discipline teacher Ms. Malathy whacking students with rambutan hairdo? Oh and having to witness someone 2 years YOUNGER rudely yelling at a Form 5 girl because she didn’t wear a ribbon on her hair? TOTALLY DISRESPECTFUL BRAT!

Okay, so I’m lucky to only WITNESS them instead of experiencing, but it gets a little edgy. I mean come on! That brat’s just a Prefect In-Training. For someone like her, she sure has some attitude to stand up against someone older with so much rudeness. The situation’s simple, we’re having our daily 10 minute silent reading session when this pretentious salesbrat of a Prefect In-Training came:

Brat: Put on your ribbon [Loud]
Girl: Don’t need to yell…
Brat: I said put on your ribbon! [Louder]
Girl: I don’t have! Don’ yell so loud!
Brat: Don’t have means buy lah! [LOUDER]

Now, for one, the girl did ABSOLUTELY NOTHING WRONG! She wasn’t wearing her ribbon [like duh, I don't either cause I don't care] but she didn’t DENY OR IGNORE. She just told the brat nicely, not to say so LOUDLY. But nooooooooooo~, Miss Bossicums prefers it HER WAY. Instead of trying to embarrass the girl into buying HER RIBBONS, she received instant sharp glares from both Form 5 and Form 6 ^^ now isn’t that lovely?

I’ll definitely fire her on the spot for her bad behaviour. This is NOT the way PREFECTS are trained to BE! Prefects are the guides and the people who keep students under control, assist the school. NOT DESPERATE SALESGIRLS! Alright then onto our General Paper lessons. I don’t know how stupid concept of teaching can get but if this is the meaning of TEACHING, I might as well just be a teacher myself and get free payments. Oh wait, better yet QUIT SCHOOL AND STUDY MY OWN DUH! My friend was given a task to PRESENT in front of the class about the format of GRAPH. WTH?! GRAPHS ARE SOMETHING THE TEACHERS MUST EXPLAIN THROUGHLY! NOT STUDENTS! Even more, FORMAT OF PLOTTING A GRAPH. Totally bullshit, about lecturers in university being this and that. Yea yea, so why don’t you JUST TEACH. If something as important as this gets messed up, who can we trust from now on? Its no wonder we all took tuitions. Can never rely back on our own school. So useless…

And then when I got home, I barely SLEPT…and mom RAPPED on about blah blah shit…threaten. Like duh, like hell I care? Don’t kacau me lah, I’m not in the mood. When I’m bad mood, its not your turn to invade my privacy AT ALL. In short, just get lost. Finish.

On Monday 30 June 2008, which was yesterday was the day these ang mors called the Australians came to visit our school as part of their cultural international programme. I wasn’t that nervous when we, the Lower 6 Science students were amongst the selected batch to greet them. Last year was from Bali, this year we got beautiful girls from Australia ^^.

It was a thrilling experience, and I can’t help but admire their beauty and best of all their uniform. It was shocking to learn they’re around 1 to 2 years younger than us! ~.~ So its really true, Asians look younger. We Malaysians are always known for our direct attitudes and straight to the point. Expressionless greetings and bulstling queue up lines. Somehow we can put it this way, we’re so disciplined to the point we forgot our own manners to greet people. They were the friendly ones. They shared most of their feelings, views and everything they can to conversate. My tongue was all twisted, language all grammar errors. You just want to hear them talk more than you.

Its amazing that they’re learning the Bahasa Indonesia back at their school. Unlike us, we’re Bahasa Malaysia which is Melayu indirectly yet still about the same. They weren’t shy to show off their skills in their language. Somewhat it becomes a little funny session where they messed up yet still continue on without holding back. We had them play the most famous traditional game in Malaysia tradition, congkak [thank god our school got them]

It’s an arithmatic game which requires math skills and speed. Traditionally, its always played with the guli called marbles. At first it was hard for them to grasp the game but eventually, they were playing like pros after and hour non-stop of the game. It even got them addicted. Who wouldn’t? Our girls always come up to the library just to enjoy a simple game of congkak be it Malay, Chinese or Indian.

But every meeting must come to an end. We were summoned to the VIP room on our Australian friends’ wishes. And my gosh, it was totally so thoughtful of them to give us goodies. I got a keychain and a koala ^^ and a flag to go with it. JYJY Australian girls! Selamat kembali! Sila Datang Lagi!

Shan Lin just told me about her grandmother and all, and how she might be switching school to Victoria Institute. Being her friend, I would normally say “GOOO!” right? But I can’t…Am I even her friend -_-? Am I her close friend? Her best friend? I don’t even understand much about her, yet she understands me. Am I hoping too much again?

I’m losing my innerself…the character I nursed, a temporary illusion of the real me from MapleStory and yet to be crushed at the mere sight of those around me. Haiz…so if she goes, will I be able to handle it? ~.~ Aiyoh…am I making the right decision? She did said, she wouldn’t shift school without me. It made me happy yet at the same time guilty. Shan Lin’s not the type to be easily held back, but…haiz. -_- I just feel sad, and emoing to lose another best friend. Sigh…whatever…

LOL. We will be planning to shift class again since Shan Lin’s mom came and complained to the principal. Our new principal is indeed a good leader whom we Form 6 come to respect and admire. She’s a great example of an efficient leader who would bring a whole new revolution into SMP.

We did complained about the condition of our class, but we STUDENTS were ignored just like that. Is that how they treat their special precious Form 6? Science Streamers somemore? Hmmm? Some teacher came into our class and blurted out craps with a so fake soft voice as if she cared before. Duh, we told her before and she went gozilla mood on us. All point fingers here and there only, so unprofessional. Never listen to students, never even BOTHER. Only use our manpower for useless events. Useless people.

We discussed in class on which block to shift and the best solution. Pn. Rahimah was quite considerate on picking the best environment for us. We as neglected students pushed aside couldn’t helped but feel pampered in one way or another. And well here comes the best part ~.~.

While we were discussing with the teacher about which temporary classroom stay in until our current gets upgraded, Muka 9A1 [the same Muka Sastera] copied every of our words and take it as if she KNEW it herself. Even going as far to pretend, she CLEANED the class ALONG WITH US. Like duh, we’re frigging tired so don’t compare yourself to us. We worked HARDER than you. It was distracting. While talking to the teacher and explaining the odds and evens, she would give her stupid useless points like “Yeah, I also seen that class. Quite good…blah blah” while we were all saying “Far from the lab but the condition is great. Table are same, materials and spacious. Better than being in Block Mawar” and she follows the same sentence. The thing is she was TALKING while we were DISCUSSING. Can’t she be any rude. I was a bit fed up, I just said “Eh SHOOOU!” pointing at her direction. She didn’t care. The teacher backed up back by saying “Eh, shut up lah”

We tak boleh tahan, my row all laughed so loud. Memalukan sahaja. Dahlah Muka Sastera, tipu 9A1 now pulak Muka Shut Up. ~.~ I’m sorry, its not like me to criticize someone, but this particular girl just disgusts me. Total disgrace of an example of a science student and an SMP girl.

Last Saturday, the unbearable over-dusty class was tackle by a group of girls (8-9 of them) who just couldn’t take it anymore. We flooded the class with water and a bunch of crappy detergent. Scrubbing the dusty floors, wiping the ceiling fans, cleaning the windows, painting the “papan notis” =_= Shan Lin did her voodoo double brush. A picture of a burned rocket and Banana Island filled with greenery amazon colours. It was a hectic and crazy day. The aftermath? We wasted 3 hours just to get the water out of the class. And its STILL MUDDY WITH DUST~!

Politics are growing, I kena third time MUET again. =_= Someone just hates me up there…I was in the mood to eat [cause the teacher mentioned it was officially done”, thinking over WHAT to eat and BOOM…”Shi Yan, come up in front” OMG. Thanks Shan Lin <.< My concentration wasn’t even there, I let my guard down…I was…less formal. All cause I was daydreaming.

Now to decide, ponteng, or not PONTENG?!

Lesson 1: NEVER ever go into sensitive topics like “We don’t like Art Classes”

Almost like racism we’re streamism? The long silent battle between the Arts and Science department has yet to cease. Art assuming Science look down upon them was the major cause of all these illusionist clash. It took a further twist when weirdo Science students who’re too proud of themselves ADMITS it. I’m not a pure science freak, my SPM result isn’t as promising as it looks but I got to admit…I find proud science stream fools too stupid to save their own life. It’s not about being in streams…its about the difference in subject and environment of study, duh. We’re no better than arts. At the end, we’re dominated by them if that’s how you it, duh.

One idiot manage to make a name for herself by going around spreading stupid rumors about Science class not satisfied with Art classes being the LEADER of everything for our Hi-Tea Ceremony. Like duh, its JUST HI-TEA. Even if they manage as the LEADER of the council, would I care? Tough being under Art students? ~.~ Causing some jumbled up crap of misunderstanding, my friend who’s a monitor GOT INVOLVED for no apparent REASON. She’s INNOCENCE and we KNOW IT.

Lesson 2: Muka Sastera will always remain as MUKA SASTERA

Even the teacher points out. MUKA SASTERA indeed. Not to belittle the Art class students…but its just how we see it. Pure Art students are passionate with Arts. My friend who’s a Science student initially got transfered to Art Stream due to her flunked Science papers. I talked to her before saying how talented she really is with Literature while Science wasn’t her calling. It’s just suicide. She took it slowly and steady and time after time I tried to visit her to see how it was going. She seem happy there. She sort of understood the whole subject overall. Maths and Science just wasn’t in her range. Now that’s a Pure Art Student. MUKA Sastera as how I see are people who’re initially in this range but gets into Science stream AND acts all big. Memalukan Science students only.

Lesson 3: There has never been a clash to begin with, just misunderstandings

Creating havoc just to have a name for yourself is just a dream never to come true. We’re an alliance of LOWER FORM 6 students. If petty issues like this got in our way, its time to go back to kindergarden. Any issue is resolve through a proper talk. No assumption or your little hypothesis. It’s all simple…someone wanted to create trouble, as we got involved and misinterpreted. Now its all a misunderstanding. But once a misunderstanding surfaces there’s no backing down. It’s a scar that will follow on. And being troubleavoiders we will refrain any further discussion of the topic. Never mess with the Science and Art students. We’ll make your life a living hell.

Lesson 4: Keep gossips to yourself

It’s hard cause I’m a gossiper and gossip lover myself. Haha…but don’t be a “Batu Api” and just keep it quiet. Making people angry is a childish move. We want to minimize the damage as much as possible. I wish I can follow this -_- It’s time I change my character too…

Right…and how is that different from a chat with the gang at the mamak stall? Shan Lin’s bloody pissed off with her post as the “Souveniuer Manager” ~.~ without her consent. I’m alright with Rachel, she’s cool ^^. Just something made me in a foul mood and crap. The thought of people like that lingering in the class…makes my mind…dirty for some reason. Could be the Physic quiz ~.~ or crap. Someone didn’t do their Physics subjective properly ^x^.

I met Ka Vian coincidently in the Metro 71 bus. She’s just on her way home from her newly transfered school St John ^^. Everything’s somehow just new…the system’s also unique. Teachers, not all entered the class yet. Form 5 being “Aaa! Aahh” =( but upon hearing that she has yet to make friends there, I feel like crying for some reason. Heart all broken and stuff. Let time flow for now. If anything persists, at least we can try to talk to her to transfer back. Not that I’m demanding it…but ~.~ how would you feel having your friends feeling that way in school.

Today I even had a nightmare during my afternoon nap about everything that happened during my whole one year and a half Form 6 experience. Haiz…I must be tensed up over my subjects. Aside from that, our so called plan to CLEAN the dusty class got ruined YET AGAIN by another one of those stupid school events. Thanks SMP, you seriously FUCKED my SCHEDULE YET AGAIN! <.< I’m so hating you at this very moment. Will try to test out my photoshop ^^